Lord, I feel like I'm struggling with lessons that I thought I mastered as an adolescent.

Yet now, implementing those statutes seem to be further to me than the Sahara Desert.

Why does it feel like my spiritual life is going backward? 1 step forward seems to leave me 2 steps back, making a slide in Snakes and Ladders seem like a personal attack.

Perhaps the reality is that the more I grow in You the more I need to relearn Your teachings to a deeper extent.

Though, that reasoning sometimes leaves me with so much discontent.

Or perhaps, I need to relearn to be Your little child again, hopelessly dependent on You, where Your voice is the first and only thing on my mind. Maybe that way, Your fruits will naturally develop too.